A Cure for Fear

A few months ago I went to church with my arms out in a 3/4 jacket. At this time psoriasis covered my arms, but I was trying my best to walk in confidence. You would think that church would be the safest place to go and not have to worry. But no matter what, fear is still harvested in the back of my mind.

As my husband and I sat there in the pew enjoying the glorious music, a girl around the age of 6 and her mother made their way down the pew. That’s when my heart started beating real fast, anxiety hit, and I became nervous. I have this complex with kids and my skin, it’s hard for them to comprehend, and kids are usually honest without a filter.

As we sat there I conversed with God, asking him to please calm my mind and my thoughts. I even tried to hide my arms so my psoriasis wouldn’t be so noticeable. I know you might be thinking “why is she intimidate by a 6 year old?” I asked myself the same question, but it’s just something I couldn’t help.

So as the service goes on, I see the girl looking down at my arms, or it could have been my sparkly bangles she was checking out, I’m really not sure. Anyway, we approached the part of service where the pastor ask the congregation to greet their neighbor with a hand sake, hug, or a simple good morning.

As I stood up to greet the people around me, I felt a tap on my leg. I looked down and it was the 6 year old girl with her arms out to embrace me with a hug. It was as if God himself was saying “It’s ok my child.” That day a hug was the cure to my fear.

I never seen that little girl again at church, maybe she sits in a different pew, or goes to a different service. But that hug warmed my heart, and will be something I will never forget. If there were more people with the heart of that little 6 year old girl the world would be a better place.

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  1. […] As we sat there I conversed with God, asking him to please calm my mind and my thoughts. I even kind of tried to hide my arms so it wouldn’t be so obvious. I know you might be thinking “why is she intimidate by a 6-year old? [more] […]

  2. October 25, 2012

    Denise Reply

    Hi! It’s the first time I see your blog, I first saw one of your tweets about psoriasis and then I decided to see how other persons handle it.
    First of all I have to say that you are gorgeous! And despite what you said in your post you look like a very cofident woman!
    Secondly, I was really moved by your story! I too have psoriasis and I know how it is to have the tendency to hide from people, especially from the honesty of kids 🙂 And when I got to the end of your story I had tears in my eyes… There are small things that happen to us every day that keep us going on. Sometimes even a child’s hug.
    I compliment you for the courage you had to “come out of the closet” and I wish you all the best!
    I’m looking forward to see new posts!

    • October 27, 2012

      marieb411 Reply

      Thank you so much for your love and encouragement.

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