So today I started a new biologic called Taltz. It’s the newest kid on the block for injections that help psoriasis. It was approved by the FDA on March 2016. I was originally on Stelara which worked wonders for me about 2 years before it began to no longer work. Luckily I didn’t suffer from any side effects, although I have no idea how these medicines will affect me down the line.
Today I had two injections, 2 weeks from now I’ll have my 3rd, four weeks from then I’ll have my 4th injection, and then it’s every 30 days after. I have to give them to myself.
Right now my feelings are bitter sweet. I don’t mean to sound ungrateful because I’m really happy that I’ve received the chance to try a new drug… I just hate that I have to have medicine in general to rid of my psoriasis. I worry about the side effects in the present and 10 years from now. I worry about stopping my drugs when it’s time to have a child. I wonder how long this medicine will work before my body becomes use to it and the injection is no longer effective. I just wish my immune system would correct its self without medicine.
At times I blame myself and I think I should have the ability to control my immune system because it’s a part of me. I guess I’m just having a moment.
I know at times I appear to be so strong, like I’m fighting psoriasis and I’m winning. But I can’t lie, sometimes those old feelings of “why me” begin to surface. Sometimes I get tired of dealing with this illness. Sometimes I don’t feel normal and I wish things were different!
At this point I’m just hoping for the best and I pray my body does not suffer from the side effects of these drugs, that’s my biggest issue.